Day 5 - I don't know, it wasn't on the list!

To be completely honest, I'm not 100% sure what happened last night.  We had planned the go to obvious course from mouths only to hands only.  I made mention to Her as I leaned over and began rubbing Her that I could do that for days and she'd never be able to cum.  

Then, I don't know what came over me.  We were talking idly, I can't even remember what about, when out of nowhere I grabbed her by her hips, threw her on knees, licked her just enough to get her wet and then shoved myself inside her.  She must have said something - I don't know!

I say shoved because it wasn't gentle and I will use the word "fucked" because that's what I did.  Even when I'm gentle to start, it still hurts her.  She's very small down there and it takes a little while to "relax".  Physically, we aren't very compatible.  She's a smaller girl - I'm a "bigger" guy.  So, we always take it slow to start.  Not last night.

The rest is, honestly, a bit of a blur.  I asked her if it hurt - she didn't answer.  I fucked her harder and asked again.  I got a whimper of a reply....."yes".  I asked her if she wanted me to stop....."no".  I asked her if she wanted it to hurt....."yes".  I asked her if she liked it....."yes".  Whether she said that because she thought it was what I wanted to hear or because she felt she was supposed to or she meant what she said, I’m not sure.

I was just abusive, for lack of a better word.  I know it hurt her - I put that thought out of my mind and just fucked her.  I pulled her hair.  I smacked her ass.  I turned her over and roughly grabbed her tits and pulled at her nipples.  I choked her.  She said something to me and I smacked her.  Not hard enough with the intention to hurt - just hard enough to say "shut up".  But I've been told I don't know my own strength and very well might have hurt her.  

I talked dirty to her the entire time.  I called her names.  I was pretty degrading.  She seemed to be in a constant state of pleasure, pain and fear. 

When she came, I stopped.  I'm pretty sure she was a little traumatized.  I think she said something to that effect.  Even this morning, she seemed....different.  She seemed quiet.  We took a break – I held her and gave her kisses on her face.  I let her take a second to relax.  She finally realizes and says out-loud, “You didn’t cum!”.  I guess I had done something right because without any prompting (or did I ask?), she sat between my legs and started rubbing me with her hands and tits until I finished.

We haven’t had sex like we did last night.  Not to that extent.  She always enjoys a hand around her neck but last night was pure animal in every aspect.  Without reading her blog (it’s against the rules!), when we have a second, I’ll have to sit down and talk about how it made her feel.  What she enjoyed about it….if she enjoyed it!  You’ll know before me.  We'll probably revisit encounters similar to this, but maybe more planned.  I might have caught her (and myself) off-guard with this one.

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